Took a home-test, positive (but faint). Came up pretty immediately -- within a minute.
Took one the next morning, positive (and stronger line).
Confirmed in a lab test.
Eight weeks along at time of testing, evidently.
This time I had not counted anything on a calendar, examined my mucus, or bothered my cervix about its position in the universe. To hell with ovulation was basically my way of thinking, as the last time I had ovulated had seemed so perfect (lots of EWCM) that when a period followed, I was fed up.
Symptoms were in hindsight, and slight: an upset stomach one night, fleeting; increased sexual desire; weepy (attributed to anniversary of a death and a heavier workload); had missed a period BUT this wasn't abnormal, as I have had long cycles in the past, and I felt as though ovulation or PMS was occurring. What might have caused me to take the test was a little nub on my nipple. There may have been other "symptoms," but had I been pregnant any other month, a number of similar things could also have been re-characterized as symptoms.
In any case, I felt so normal and fine that I had a number of glasses of wine and beer over the course of October (nothing excessive) and gave in to some old cravings for cigarettes. That's how *not-pregnant* I felt, and how *not-pregnant* I assumed I was. After seven years, after all, what's another month but a not-pregnant month?
Too many times in the past I have mistaken spotting, sore breasts and bloating as pregnancy and took too many hpts that resulted, always, with seismic disappointment. Disappointment great enough that I had resolved not to take any more tests, which was why it wasn't until November that I tested. I thought, "If I'm pregnant, that won't change, whether I find out early or not (and if I am pregnant and miscarry, I won't have to know)."
It wasn't until after the positive, in my ninth week, that my breasts became incredibly sore, and wasn't until early in my tenth week (where I am right now) that the blue veins became visible under my skin. I had some heartburn in weeks 7/8, but I usually have some heartburn with PMS.
Sometimes pregnancy happens after a long time of waiting. I don't know if I endorse the method, but it was ours. There have been a number of small hells, though, that came with the waiting. And even now, having not told people that we were trying (since we have been for so many years), it is hard to hear people say when we share the good news, "It's about time."
May our baby come true in June.
Best of patience, endurance, and inhuman resolve to all of you. <3