Hi ladies : D I can secretly come out of hiding now? I have been scrolling through pages of success stories, sad stories, happy stories, compelling and perspective changing stories and now here I am to introduce my story. Take it as you will. I posted in the blogs in a panic yesterday evening with a faint bfp on a dollar tree test. I had tested two months ago with dollar tree only to get a number or terrible evaps. I would be lying if I said I wasn't devastated. Move forward two months and here I am with a BFP.
This month my husband and I decided that we would not obsess. I decided I would continue my interval training which I was absolutely obsessive about and not think about bfp or bfn's. This is your eye rolling moment ( another woman that tells me to relax). Well, I won't tell you that because still, deep in the back of my mind through the business and daily tasks it crossed my mind of course. I won't lie and say it didn't. I still saw babies and melted...I still inspected my boobs behind closed bedroom doors :D. I have an 8 year old from a previous relationship. Another eye rolling moment, I was 18 when I had him. Now, 8 years later here I am in the career I always dreamed of, pushed past the barriers of teen mom stigma and happily married the love of my life. This time was exhilarating because it was planned. Never thought I would plan a pregnancy, its an incredible feeling when you want something so bad, you work towards it and appreciate it more.
I had my moments where I thought, (7 months tic), it would not happen. Why , I am so young? Then I would remind myself of the ladies struggling with infertility, doing everything they can to try to become pregnant. I felt selfish. I knew it would happen at some point and my heart absolutely broke for them. I give you so much hope, happy thoughts and I so admire you in your struggle. How you manage jobs, relationships and emotions all the while. I really appreciate that.
On to my symptoms, I know that you all came here for that. Thanks for reading and my fingers are crossed for you. I did NOT feel lucky this month or pregnant. My symptoms are minimal. Seeing the BFP's today was absolutely shocking to me. I just...I still cannot quite comprehend it.
I have 23-24 day cycles since coming off mirena. I am 27, husband is 24. I have very early ovulation.
Af Feb 11-15. Ovulated with positive OPK as per usual on Feb 21 and 20. Nothing at all out of the ordinary with ovulation.
Feb 24-today - hair unusually greasy. Never have this in my life. I have thin hair no change in any shampoo etc. Hair , the back of it just all of a sudden is greasy ALL the time. No matter what !
This past weekend March 1-3 no dreams about pregnancy but a dream where all my teeth fell out and it was SO weird because it was incredibly real and I literally woke up in a panic feeling for my teeth...what the heck.
Past two nights waking to pee which is sometimes unusual. Peeing more today though no question about it.
Boobs are always bigger at this time. They were super sensitive after o, then evened out and now they are off and on but NOTHING out of the ordinary. They are bigger though, husband says but what does he know : D
Tested last night 9dpo and got a faint bfp at NIGHT dollar tree...completely fluffed it off, would not get excited.
Today woke up and my cat puked. My husband at the same time gave me a peanut butter sandwich and I literarily gagged my way half way through it before putting it aside completely. VERY UNUSUAL. I eat the same peanut butter bags every day of my life lol. My cat also pukes EVERY DAY of its life : D
So today after lunch ran to get a frer knowing that wouldn't lie and immediately a really dark line is up !? How can this be, took two more out of insanity OMG. Husband is home, we jump around (cautiously lol) and he cries and I sit in shock until writing this now. It is early days and my happiness could be deflated but for now, I am certainly allowing it. What will be will be and if it is not meant to be , it certainly is for a reason.
Keep your fingers and toes crossed for me ladies and I absolutely, from my heart wish you the babies you desire xoxo